Sorry I've been away for awhile, it has just been CRAZY LIFE over here the past few days!
I have a story for ya though! Well, the first part of it at least.
Monday, I came back from Missip and stopped in Clemson for the night to split the 8 hour trip home.
I was meeting Kristi for dinner, but she was in class til later. So about an hour before I got there, I planned to stop at one of my favorite places on campus, sit on a blanket in the late afternoon sunshine, and read my Bible until time to meet her. I was excited.
Well, despite the sun shining when I got out of my car and started walking towards "the spot", blanket and Bible in hand, it started to rain...HA! So I got back in my car right before the downpour, much to my annoyance, because well, I had already been in it for over 6 hours, and I really just wanted some quiet time to myself to read and pray... and I just knew being outside would make it much better. And, um, that is what I had planned, duh.
I found myself thinking, "Lord, with all the craziness of school and just life in general, I just feel that recently my time with Jesus has been "forced" and unintentional on my part. I just feel..weird. And well, I just REALLY want to sit in the grass and talk to Jesus and feel his presence and pray! But noooooo this random rain cloud pops out of nowhere and I have to sit in my car!"
I was on the verge of a type-A meltdown.
However, thanks to God, I decided it didn't matter if I was in the grass next to the lake or in my truck with my piles of laundry and outlines, Jesus was still there. So I cracked open Jesus Calling and the ole NIV, but the weird feeling was still around. I didn't know where to start. I was just kind of staring at them, and getting the same feeling of just..blah. So, I closed my eyes and prayed, still just feeling like I was moving in slow motion, stuck in pluff mud.
After praying, which was nothing monumental, just me pouring out my little heart in the most random/non-put together way, I looked to the verses in the Jesus Calling for the day and they were:
"And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:19
and...
"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor. 4:16-18
For some reason, after that, I felt unstuck! Was I still confused about a lot of things in my life? Absolutely. But the peace that came with those words was SO great. I am slowly learning, it's HIM that holds the plan, not me! Whether it's the spot I am going to spend time with Him that day, or what is going to be happening a year from now, God's got it taken care of. All of it.
It stopped raining, I walked around for a little while, then headed to meet Kristi for dinner! The next morning, I left for HOME. :)
To be continued so you don't hurt your eyes!
LF